well its nt related to me! sumthin written by me..
"Lost and upset she was sitting all alone in the class... Her friend came around and asked “hey what are those marks on your cheek”... “My father beat me last night”, she said wid sum tears n her eyes...
That friend left for US... They met again after five years.... She had same marks, this time it was her HUSBAND!!!"
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Love is what makes you smile when you are tired....
Sunday, May 17, 2009
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Every day is a battle. Every. Single. Day. It starts the moment you struggle yourself out of your bed in the morning and ends in the late evening when your seemingly restless mind finally gives up to sleeping.
Every minute of the day you fight. You fight your own fears, your insecurities. You try to be the best in everything you do. Each task, each assignment. You are trying to find who you are, where you belong. You search for the answers, and when you don’t find them, your mind creates new questions and then even more of them.
You struggle against uncertainties. You fight for the better future. You are who you are but you know you can be more than that. And you are trying to prove it.
To prove that you are good enough.To prove that you can achieve whatever you want to.
You are setting goals. And to get near them is a small battle in itself. Each one of them.During the day you pull yourself through dozens of small fights. And at the end of the day, you are exhausted, overloaded with emotions, good and bad. You don’t have energy for anything.
You just don’t…So you crawl onto your bed, wrap yourself into a blanket and are trying to pretend like you are okay… but your mind keeps proving you wrong. Just in the middle of a serious discussion your mind and you are having, the phone beeps.
A message.
Three words.
All you needed to hear, or rather to read.
That’s when mind finally gives up.
That’s when heart means more.
Love is what makes you smile when you are tired, someone said.I just smile.....
Every minute of the day you fight. You fight your own fears, your insecurities. You try to be the best in everything you do. Each task, each assignment. You are trying to find who you are, where you belong. You search for the answers, and when you don’t find them, your mind creates new questions and then even more of them.
You struggle against uncertainties. You fight for the better future. You are who you are but you know you can be more than that. And you are trying to prove it.
To prove that you are good enough.To prove that you can achieve whatever you want to.
You are setting goals. And to get near them is a small battle in itself. Each one of them.During the day you pull yourself through dozens of small fights. And at the end of the day, you are exhausted, overloaded with emotions, good and bad. You don’t have energy for anything.
You just don’t…So you crawl onto your bed, wrap yourself into a blanket and are trying to pretend like you are okay… but your mind keeps proving you wrong. Just in the middle of a serious discussion your mind and you are having, the phone beeps.
A message.
Three words.
All you needed to hear, or rather to read.
That’s when mind finally gives up.
That’s when heart means more.
Love is what makes you smile when you are tired, someone said.I just smile.....
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
"We think the most about those whom we badly want to forget.."
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
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In life..we hurt them the most,whom we love the most..We fight..with whom we expect the most..We smile with tears in our eyes and pain in our hearts when people who matter to us hurt us and then ask for forgiveness..We think the most about those whom we badly want to forget..After talking to the one we love the most over the phone..the moment we disconnect the call,we realize we forgot one important thing to say.....Thats how all of us live life... So,cherish the people who matter to you in life...hold on to the moments that bring a smile to your face..and live every minute of your life as if its the last...
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Ek pyari si THANX!!!!
Saturday, May 9, 2009
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Maa, Thanks for being the way you are.....I don't want to talk about what you did for us and all that coz I think that is something beyond words. You know you mean the world to me and I think that will be all.
We fight, I argue, I throw fits of anger, You tease me, I tease you... We cry together, We laugh it out aloud together... We gossip together and We get philosiphical together... and in a way with every passing moment, we grow up together... :)
We fight, I argue, I throw fits of anger, You tease me, I tease you... We cry together, We laugh it out aloud together... We gossip together and We get philosiphical together... and in a way with every passing moment, we grow up together... :)
Mom, you know what... YOU ROCK!! even if you want me to become more healthy...and Thanks so much for keepin up with my short temper and OUT-OF-THE-WORLD silly opinions on everything...!!!1
Happy Mothers's Day .... Love you, Mumma... :))
Happy Mothers's Day .... Love you, Mumma... :))
Thursday, May 7, 2009
My 2-year-old-LIFE!!
Thursday, May 7, 2009
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My 2 year old niece was born when I was in Graduation 2nd year. I was like huh... when I found out that I was going to have a baby in my home I always suddenly started prayin god that I should get a baby gal for sure.. God probably knows the reason of my nature of hating baby boys. I spent every single day crying and creating a scene about it! I wanted baby gal only @ any cost! I was the worst aunt on this planet. I cried even more on the day she was born....cause my jiju told me @ first it was a baby boy.. But later on i got the final news its a princess who came into our life.. I found out a whole lot of other things that totally changed the way I felt and acted. I felt happy about having a niece. That very night ( 5th February,2007)I heard her voice for the first time. I loved her! I still do!!She is one of the best things that have ever happened to me! She does the cutest of things and she speaks in the most adorable way! She laughs and plays with me. She hugs me and cries with me when she sees me crying! She is my 2-year-old-LIFE!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
I Resign from Adulthood ....
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
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I Resign...
I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult.
I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities
of an 8-year-old again.
I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant.
I want to sail paper boats across a fresh mud pond nd spend my whole aftrnoon making and flying paper planes.
I want to eat pastries and icecreams and candies and sweets, spillin them all over my clothes and not worry about how it will affect the way i look.
I want to lie under a big tree with my friends on a hot summer day.
I want to have 2 full months of fun and visits to my Mama's home during my summer vacations.
I want to spend the all my days with my Dadu n Dida, whom i had already lost.
I want to jump like mad and dance during rains as if there is no tomorrow.
I want to go back to the time when breaking a 'promise' meant a condemned life in hell..!! (Well.. I still believe in that.. :D :P)
I want to return to a time when life was simple.
When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables,
and nursery rhymes,
but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what
you didn't know and you didn't care.
All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset.
I want to think the world is fair.
That everyone is honest and good.
I want to believe that anything is possible.
I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and
be overly excited by the little things again.
I want to live simple again.
I don't want my day to consist of laptop crashes, mountains of exams, assignments, presentations, depressing news, bills, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones.
In our running around all over the city and the globe as a grown-up, we tend to forget all the little things that used to make us happy with lots of laughter and mean the world to us in our childhood, things which we now consider to be petty or silly or even idiotic.
As everyone knows I'm at home now a days and spendin most of my times with my 2yrs old niece.. Being with kids and playing with them helps us become one, and i find it to be very destressing. In fact it makes me happy.. :D . Play with kids and eat 'Desserts' when u r 'Stressed'..!! (Try reading it 'Stressed' in reverse !! :P ) .. I'm in love wid my baby so much as i duont want to go back to hostel.. but I have to return I know.. examz are com in you see.. :(. Anyways where was I?
Oh huh..
I don't care if I have a time machine or a gadget by which I can turn back time. Because, I have already resigned from my adulthood. I know being an adult gives you a few things like Permission for carrying ATM Cards, Bikes, Mobile Phones and so on.., but what the hell.. Paper planes, Silly Dancing, Barbie Dolls...here I come!! I'm a 8 year old kid from today. Affirmative !! :D :D
PS - I do admit that I Still do a lot of the things that I have mentioned above :D :D , but I want to do them more often, actually more more often. :D :D ..!!
Cheers..!!
I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult.
I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities
of an 8-year-old again.
I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant.
I want to sail paper boats across a fresh mud pond nd spend my whole aftrnoon making and flying paper planes.
I want to eat pastries and icecreams and candies and sweets, spillin them all over my clothes and not worry about how it will affect the way i look.
I want to lie under a big tree with my friends on a hot summer day.
I want to have 2 full months of fun and visits to my Mama's home during my summer vacations.
I want to spend the all my days with my Dadu n Dida, whom i had already lost.
I want to jump like mad and dance during rains as if there is no tomorrow.
I want to go back to the time when breaking a 'promise' meant a condemned life in hell..!! (Well.. I still believe in that.. :D :P)
I want to return to a time when life was simple.
When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables,
and nursery rhymes,
but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what
you didn't know and you didn't care.
All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset.
I want to think the world is fair.
That everyone is honest and good.
I want to believe that anything is possible.
I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and
be overly excited by the little things again.
I want to live simple again.
I don't want my day to consist of laptop crashes, mountains of exams, assignments, presentations, depressing news, bills, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones.
In our running around all over the city and the globe as a grown-up, we tend to forget all the little things that used to make us happy with lots of laughter and mean the world to us in our childhood, things which we now consider to be petty or silly or even idiotic.
As everyone knows I'm at home now a days and spendin most of my times with my 2yrs old niece.. Being with kids and playing with them helps us become one, and i find it to be very destressing. In fact it makes me happy.. :D . Play with kids and eat 'Desserts' when u r 'Stressed'..!! (Try reading it 'Stressed' in reverse !! :P ) .. I'm in love wid my baby so much as i duont want to go back to hostel.. but I have to return I know.. examz are com in you see.. :(. Anyways where was I?
Oh huh..
I don't care if I have a time machine or a gadget by which I can turn back time. Because, I have already resigned from my adulthood. I know being an adult gives you a few things like Permission for carrying ATM Cards, Bikes, Mobile Phones and so on.., but what the hell.. Paper planes, Silly Dancing, Barbie Dolls...here I come!! I'm a 8 year old kid from today. Affirmative !! :D :D
PS - I do admit that I Still do a lot of the things that I have mentioned above :D :D , but I want to do them more often, actually more more often. :D :D ..!!
Cheers..!!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Do you tell your name to a stranger???
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
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I didn’t, not for a very long time. I thought if I told my name to strangers I may get into trouble: they may act familiar with me, use my name for things I did not want it to be used.
It started very early, way back in school. I was a teenager then, taught to ignore comments by boys wanting to “make friendship” with me. Sometimes those comments were questions, usually ‘What is your name?’ I never answered that question, never except once.
A boy of my age used to follow me on his bicycle insisted day after day he wanted to know my name. I ignored him like I had ignored others before him. But he was cute. And naughty. And if it had not been for my conditioning I may have befriended him. But it was only because he was cute and naughty that I took the liberty to reply to him. He pleaded me to tell him my name and I barked back at him, “Chameli!” It was the unlikeliest of names for somebody of my age and the likeliest thing to turn him into silence. He never asked me my name again. Never came back to follow me.
When I was in graduation and started traveling in trains - usually alone, from Home - to Hostel, I had a very unoriginal but fictional name for any stranger on the journey who wanted to know my name. I called myself ‘sneha' for no particular reason. I do not know what I thought they would do with my name if they knew it but I never told my name.I was almost scared about not disclosing my identity.
but somewhere down the line I realised I was being very boring. I was closing myself off to a lot of people. They were strangers, yes, but how would I make new friends if I kept lying to strangers who could be my friends? Did I have to know people from somewhere, through somebody to befriend them? And I realised I could afford to be less serious on others and more secure with my name!Yesterday, Dee and I were at a bookstore browsing through books, discussing authors, must-reads, flipping through magazines when a young boy came up to us and started chatting with u. He complimented Dee, told us he was Afghanistani student here on a scholarship. And then he asked me my name.I did not pause to gave him the name by which everyone who knows me. I did not pause to make up another name for myself. I did not pause to think, after I had spoken to him, that I had done something out of my limit.But when I came back home, I realised it was probably the first time I had told a stranger my precious name. It felt good to be finally free to be Preety to a stranger....
It started very early, way back in school. I was a teenager then, taught to ignore comments by boys wanting to “make friendship” with me. Sometimes those comments were questions, usually ‘What is your name?’ I never answered that question, never except once.
A boy of my age used to follow me on his bicycle insisted day after day he wanted to know my name. I ignored him like I had ignored others before him. But he was cute. And naughty. And if it had not been for my conditioning I may have befriended him. But it was only because he was cute and naughty that I took the liberty to reply to him. He pleaded me to tell him my name and I barked back at him, “Chameli!” It was the unlikeliest of names for somebody of my age and the likeliest thing to turn him into silence. He never asked me my name again. Never came back to follow me.
When I was in graduation and started traveling in trains - usually alone, from Home - to Hostel, I had a very unoriginal but fictional name for any stranger on the journey who wanted to know my name. I called myself ‘sneha' for no particular reason. I do not know what I thought they would do with my name if they knew it but I never told my name.I was almost scared about not disclosing my identity.
but somewhere down the line I realised I was being very boring. I was closing myself off to a lot of people. They were strangers, yes, but how would I make new friends if I kept lying to strangers who could be my friends? Did I have to know people from somewhere, through somebody to befriend them? And I realised I could afford to be less serious on others and more secure with my name!Yesterday, Dee and I were at a bookstore browsing through books, discussing authors, must-reads, flipping through magazines when a young boy came up to us and started chatting with u. He complimented Dee, told us he was Afghanistani student here on a scholarship. And then he asked me my name.I did not pause to gave him the name by which everyone who knows me. I did not pause to make up another name for myself. I did not pause to think, after I had spoken to him, that I had done something out of my limit.But when I came back home, I realised it was probably the first time I had told a stranger my precious name. It felt good to be finally free to be Preety to a stranger....
Monday, May 4, 2009
Alphabetically speaking....
Monday, May 4, 2009
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A is for apertment therapy that I’m DO-ing on these days. My day starts and ends with checking for great home decor ideas there as I'm goin to shift in a flat very soon.
B is for all the birthday gifts I’m enjoying: clothes, soft toys, chocolates… It’s a good life!
C is for my first digital camera that I also got as a gift from one of my dear ones on some special occassion. Am loving it!
D is for dearest or me. How many more people have started calling me dearest in real life is unbelievable!
E is for excessive – roaming, shopping, eating. My life right now.
F is for family or friends. the things which really make me lucky.
G is for guiltless living. I’ve stopped feeling guilty about so many things I used to. It’s fun to live without regrets and guilt.
H is for the heat – too much, too soon!
I is for irresponsible. I really sometimes behave like so with my belongings.
J is for JLT: Life, as it is right now – just like that.
K is for kurta– the dress I’m into these days.
L is for lost – one of my pink colored top and a pair of black ankle socks are missing. I don’t know where they vanished from my room!
M is for movies that I' freaquently watching from last one month.
N is for ‘No’ – my answer to study now.
O is for obscure people who have been sending me friend requests on orkut ever since I changed my profile pic!
P is for photographhy. I want to click more photographs and get more of mine clicked. I want to frame them, make some criativity with them and blog about them.
Q is for questions about my future that are becoming increasingly difficult to avoid.
R is for rumours generally spread bout me, which dosnt make any sense to me and i hardly bother bout.
S is for status of mine which @ present making me confused.
T is for talkative the word which describes me very well.
U is for unwell – how my brain status is since my birth.
V is for valuable - the persons whom i dont want to lose.
W is for work. which is enemy of my lazy ass.
X is for xeros, Greek meaning of dry, which i jus found out from d dictionary. Just what i want to become my hairs.
Y is for all the yelling that I'm doin now a days @ home.
Z is for zzzzzz… Enough is not enough for me these days as far as sleeping goes. I blame it on the weather.
B is for all the birthday gifts I’m enjoying: clothes, soft toys, chocolates… It’s a good life!
C is for my first digital camera that I also got as a gift from one of my dear ones on some special occassion. Am loving it!
D is for dearest or me. How many more people have started calling me dearest in real life is unbelievable!
E is for excessive – roaming, shopping, eating. My life right now.
F is for family or friends. the things which really make me lucky.
G is for guiltless living. I’ve stopped feeling guilty about so many things I used to. It’s fun to live without regrets and guilt.
H is for the heat – too much, too soon!
I is for irresponsible. I really sometimes behave like so with my belongings.
J is for JLT: Life, as it is right now – just like that.
K is for kurta– the dress I’m into these days.
L is for lost – one of my pink colored top and a pair of black ankle socks are missing. I don’t know where they vanished from my room!
M is for movies that I' freaquently watching from last one month.
N is for ‘No’ – my answer to study now.
O is for obscure people who have been sending me friend requests on orkut ever since I changed my profile pic!
P is for photographhy. I want to click more photographs and get more of mine clicked. I want to frame them, make some criativity with them and blog about them.
Q is for questions about my future that are becoming increasingly difficult to avoid.
R is for rumours generally spread bout me, which dosnt make any sense to me and i hardly bother bout.
S is for status of mine which @ present making me confused.
T is for talkative the word which describes me very well.
U is for unwell – how my brain status is since my birth.
V is for valuable - the persons whom i dont want to lose.
W is for work. which is enemy of my lazy ass.
X is for xeros, Greek meaning of dry, which i jus found out from d dictionary. Just what i want to become my hairs.
Y is for all the yelling that I'm doin now a days @ home.
Z is for zzzzzz… Enough is not enough for me these days as far as sleeping goes. I blame it on the weather.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
If you are happy and you know it , clap your hands :D
Sunday, May 3, 2009
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No bakwas, seedhi baat... Here’s how you get to be happy:
· Prohibit yourself from being sad. Stop telling yourself you are sad and doomed. Picture yourself as someone who is happy and content. Fake it, till you believe in it. Works well for me. :)
· Find reasons to laugh.
Ø Grab a mirror. Look at yourself real well. Now make faces at yourself. Do you look funny? If you don’t, you have to try harder. Me and my sis do it together sometimes and believe me, every time we end up LOLing.
Ø Watch funny videos, sitcoms, movies. You can check these links.
§ Impossible is Nothing
§ 10 videos to Inspire and Cheer you
Ø Spend time with your family and friends. Remember about good times. Focus on happy thoughts only.
Ø Read humour. Write humour. Try and look at anything and everything from a funny angle. Talk to somebody who can show you the funny side of life.
· Dance like no one’s watching, maybe in your room or in a disc where ever you are comfortable.
· Listen to upbeat peppy music. No sappy music please.
· Be a kid for some time. Without thinking about general repercussions, go crazy [this doesn’t refer to getting drunk or high on dope], lose control.
· Go for a random act of kindness. The return in terms of happiness is bound to lift your mood.
· Take a break. Plan a short trip with friends or family.
· Get a niece like the one I have [No no don’t kidnap mine.] who is crazy enough to make you laugh all time with her irritatic and fantastic activities. (This scheme has some probs too, all your missing clothes mysteriously appear in your sister’s wardrobe, she eats your share of chocolates and ice creams before you even come to know that you had a share!)
· Read my blog. LOL ;)
· Prohibit yourself from being sad. Stop telling yourself you are sad and doomed. Picture yourself as someone who is happy and content. Fake it, till you believe in it. Works well for me. :)
· Find reasons to laugh.
Ø Grab a mirror. Look at yourself real well. Now make faces at yourself. Do you look funny? If you don’t, you have to try harder. Me and my sis do it together sometimes and believe me, every time we end up LOLing.
Ø Watch funny videos, sitcoms, movies. You can check these links.
§ Impossible is Nothing
§ 10 videos to Inspire and Cheer you
Ø Spend time with your family and friends. Remember about good times. Focus on happy thoughts only.
Ø Read humour. Write humour. Try and look at anything and everything from a funny angle. Talk to somebody who can show you the funny side of life.
· Dance like no one’s watching, maybe in your room or in a disc where ever you are comfortable.
· Listen to upbeat peppy music. No sappy music please.
· Be a kid for some time. Without thinking about general repercussions, go crazy [this doesn’t refer to getting drunk or high on dope], lose control.
· Go for a random act of kindness. The return in terms of happiness is bound to lift your mood.
· Take a break. Plan a short trip with friends or family.
· Get a niece like the one I have [No no don’t kidnap mine.] who is crazy enough to make you laugh all time with her irritatic and fantastic activities. (This scheme has some probs too, all your missing clothes mysteriously appear in your sister’s wardrobe, she eats your share of chocolates and ice creams before you even come to know that you had a share!)
· Read my blog. LOL ;)
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Silence....
Saturday, May 2, 2009
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DEATH:
The most certain truth of life....the utmost certainity...the hardest reality...and still the most shocking event of life...
2 days back we got to know that my friendz dad...his father passd away...he left him forevr...n as i got the news...i cud feel it...i cud feel how he wud hv felt...i felt my memories getting revived...the memories which remind me of the times when my Nanu .. Nani left me away..both of them passd away...time took them away from me...one by one...robbing me of one of the most priceless n irrecoverable treasures of my life...sme special ppl who loved me...cared for me...papmered me...took all th crap that i had to giv...n still loved me bak...selflessly...it causes so much pain to me when i think that i wasnt able to spend more time with them...the fast going lifestyle led me away from them...made it impossible for me to meet them more often...smethng which made me ignore them...smethng which i realise now...now that they are gone...i realise it now that they were always there for me...always cared for me...the joy in their eyes when they saw me...the way they stroked my hair softly...their tender loving touch...their firm n loving hug when i got scared in the night...oh God why did time have to take them away from me ?????????? Miss you Nanu...Nani...Miss You...
But i know that they are here for me...lookin over me...still caring for me...guiding me...protecting me...i feel it...
n it has made me realise that we should always treasure our loved ones...because they might get angry...they might shout...but in the deepest corner of their hearts...its pure n selfless love...unconditional love...care for us...which drives them to do these actions...n thus im gonna try and make my parents and other lovd ones feel special...love them back...tell them that i treasure them...i might not be able to do it verbally...but this blog is a medium...i care for u...i Love you...Dad..Mom...Dee...Jiju and Drishti...and all othr lovd ones of mine...I love You...
And as tears flowing outta my eyes...i try to cope with th emotions...the memories...i try to smile n fight back tears at the same time...i try to pay attention to work...i try to come to terms with the most firm truth of life...Death...with Silence..........
The most certain truth of life....the utmost certainity...the hardest reality...and still the most shocking event of life...
2 days back we got to know that my friendz dad...his father passd away...he left him forevr...n as i got the news...i cud feel it...i cud feel how he wud hv felt...i felt my memories getting revived...the memories which remind me of the times when my Nanu .. Nani left me away..both of them passd away...time took them away from me...one by one...robbing me of one of the most priceless n irrecoverable treasures of my life...sme special ppl who loved me...cared for me...papmered me...took all th crap that i had to giv...n still loved me bak...selflessly...it causes so much pain to me when i think that i wasnt able to spend more time with them...the fast going lifestyle led me away from them...made it impossible for me to meet them more often...smethng which made me ignore them...smethng which i realise now...now that they are gone...i realise it now that they were always there for me...always cared for me...the joy in their eyes when they saw me...the way they stroked my hair softly...their tender loving touch...their firm n loving hug when i got scared in the night...oh God why did time have to take them away from me ?????????? Miss you Nanu...Nani...Miss You...
But i know that they are here for me...lookin over me...still caring for me...guiding me...protecting me...i feel it...
n it has made me realise that we should always treasure our loved ones...because they might get angry...they might shout...but in the deepest corner of their hearts...its pure n selfless love...unconditional love...care for us...which drives them to do these actions...n thus im gonna try and make my parents and other lovd ones feel special...love them back...tell them that i treasure them...i might not be able to do it verbally...but this blog is a medium...i care for u...i Love you...Dad..Mom...Dee...Jiju and Drishti...and all othr lovd ones of mine...I love You...
And as tears flowing outta my eyes...i try to cope with th emotions...the memories...i try to smile n fight back tears at the same time...i try to pay attention to work...i try to come to terms with the most firm truth of life...Death...with Silence..........
big girls DON'T CRY!!!!
i magine a perfect relationship.a relationship full of love, passion, respect, tolarence, understanding and happiness. imagine that u wake up to swwet good mornings and go to bed aftr a good night kiss.every single day.365 days a yr.no exceptions.no failures. just every single day.
imagine that a simple smile of the person u love is brightening up ur day.and the way they look at u takes ur breath away.and the soft touch of their hands makes u realize that they will never let u fall.
imagine that u have someone who u would like to share hard times with.someone u want to have beside u in a strom.someone who u know wont let u down.wont betray ur trust.someone who knows who u r.accepts all ur fauls and loves u anyway.someone who sees ur heart nd touches ur soul.
imagine that ur fairly tale finally has come true and u r happy! u really r..
and each time when u whisper "i love u" u remind urself that this is the best that ever happened to u.and u dont want to let it go. ever!!
have u really imagined all these things???
now imagine there is no'happily ever after kinda thing is there between u two. there is no future.there is nothing.there is just emptiness.
because this perfect relationship has to end.because due to circumstances no matter how great wonderful and amazing ur true love is u will have to let go.. because there r things u cant control.because life has its own rules.because u cant win all the games.and because of all this one fine day u have to let go of ur dream.
because at some point u cant afford having a relationship which leads u nowhere.at some point u need to settle down and move on.no matter how big ur love is.no matter how happy u r..
at some point u have got to take this decision and accept that fairy tales dont always the happy endings.and urs is just one of them.
but how do u do this?how do u end something which makes u happy??
its like a heart surgery..
but the heart is urs.
and the surgen is u.
and the outcome is unpredictable.
so how do u decide for a surgery if u still have this tiny hope that things might work out.that circumstances will favour u and life suddenly will change its rules.how do u make a decision of cutting ur own heart if ur fairy tale has a smal chance of a happy ending??even if ur mind realizes its not goin to happen!!! HOW???
the decisions about FOREVER.
FOREVER which u dont have.
u want to be happy and u want them to be happy too.u want to be happy together.
the bitter truth of life says u cant.the sweet hope of urs says u might.
u have to make a decision.not about whether to cut or not.but about when to cut.now or later.either ways it will hurt.or else it will be tough.
whoever said big girls dont cry.. was mistaken.. they DO!!!!
imagine that a simple smile of the person u love is brightening up ur day.and the way they look at u takes ur breath away.and the soft touch of their hands makes u realize that they will never let u fall.
imagine that u have someone who u would like to share hard times with.someone u want to have beside u in a strom.someone who u know wont let u down.wont betray ur trust.someone who knows who u r.accepts all ur fauls and loves u anyway.someone who sees ur heart nd touches ur soul.
imagine that ur fairly tale finally has come true and u r happy! u really r..
and each time when u whisper "i love u" u remind urself that this is the best that ever happened to u.and u dont want to let it go. ever!!
have u really imagined all these things???
now imagine there is no'happily ever after kinda thing is there between u two. there is no future.there is nothing.there is just emptiness.
because this perfect relationship has to end.because due to circumstances no matter how great wonderful and amazing ur true love is u will have to let go.. because there r things u cant control.because life has its own rules.because u cant win all the games.and because of all this one fine day u have to let go of ur dream.
because at some point u cant afford having a relationship which leads u nowhere.at some point u need to settle down and move on.no matter how big ur love is.no matter how happy u r..
at some point u have got to take this decision and accept that fairy tales dont always the happy endings.and urs is just one of them.
but how do u do this?how do u end something which makes u happy??
its like a heart surgery..
but the heart is urs.
and the surgen is u.
and the outcome is unpredictable.
so how do u decide for a surgery if u still have this tiny hope that things might work out.that circumstances will favour u and life suddenly will change its rules.how do u make a decision of cutting ur own heart if ur fairy tale has a smal chance of a happy ending??even if ur mind realizes its not goin to happen!!! HOW???
the decisions about FOREVER.
FOREVER which u dont have.
u want to be happy and u want them to be happy too.u want to be happy together.
the bitter truth of life says u cant.the sweet hope of urs says u might.
u have to make a decision.not about whether to cut or not.but about when to cut.now or later.either ways it will hurt.or else it will be tough.
whoever said big girls dont cry.. was mistaken.. they DO!!!!
Friday, May 1, 2009
Past Matters!!!!
Friday, May 1, 2009
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Just as I think that I have been able to let go of my past then at that very moment it strikes back on me making its presence felt. Often you find people saying that forget what you have already done and just look at the present but Arghhhhhhhh I can't...I simply can't!
Feeling as lonely as one can be with no one by my side in whom I can confess/can talk to and just let my emotions go. So am just fucking writing this blog and I hope to sleep off to it and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
Nobody has time to listen what u ve got. And maybe me myself wont have time tomorrow to think about all this.So i find it better to express it in words and look back at it when the times are not good and that makes me feel better that am not in such a bad state as I was at that very moment..STRANGE!?
Feeling like banging my head against the wall. Feeling ever so lonely.
Expectations always kept mounting and I always believed that I will live up to them until I realized that the show was over.My cheese got moved and I didn't.
And now when I am trying to; then the past pulls me back. No matter how much I think that when life's dragging me behind then there will be a day when it'll lemme go and ill proceed like a Bow from an arrow.Neither I plan anything good for the future because things always turn out to be way too different from what I assume them to. So no point saying that I'll do this n that when I know that the chances are slim.
I feel like withdrawing myself from all this.I desperately needed someone to hug me and say that every things gonna be alright and guess what I've got it.
And thats Me Myself, as has always been the case. Sounding wierd!? Fuck off if it is. Yeah I hug myself.....
Yeah goddammit u got it right-->MYSELF
I loose it and I loose it in front of myself. I listen to myself and thats the best I can do. People have got priorities and I understand them. And thats why I have given up on expecting things from people......right!?
Right now I feel that I am the only one without any priorities in life and just moving along as and where life is takin me.Ask me hows life treating me. And my answer will be AWESOME.
Because it does not help even if I say it ain't because Who Cares!!! Instead let me ask..Hows life treating u !?!
I may sound unearthly and I dun care if I am coz this is ME.
I feel I am at the wrong place and days ahead are long for me. Times are testing and I try to be gritty as ever but loneliness is something which makes me loose it.Neither I want anyone to talk to me about it because you yourself know that it wont help because you have never seen me this way and neither it makes a difference to you! Tell me for once if it does! :
Cheers Over And Over!!!And I hope life treats u well!
Feeling as lonely as one can be with no one by my side in whom I can confess/can talk to and just let my emotions go. So am just fucking writing this blog and I hope to sleep off to it and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
Nobody has time to listen what u ve got. And maybe me myself wont have time tomorrow to think about all this.So i find it better to express it in words and look back at it when the times are not good and that makes me feel better that am not in such a bad state as I was at that very moment..STRANGE!?
Feeling like banging my head against the wall. Feeling ever so lonely.
Expectations always kept mounting and I always believed that I will live up to them until I realized that the show was over.My cheese got moved and I didn't.
And now when I am trying to; then the past pulls me back. No matter how much I think that when life's dragging me behind then there will be a day when it'll lemme go and ill proceed like a Bow from an arrow.Neither I plan anything good for the future because things always turn out to be way too different from what I assume them to. So no point saying that I'll do this n that when I know that the chances are slim.
I feel like withdrawing myself from all this.I desperately needed someone to hug me and say that every things gonna be alright and guess what I've got it.
And thats Me Myself, as has always been the case. Sounding wierd!? Fuck off if it is. Yeah I hug myself.....
Yeah goddammit u got it right-->MYSELF
I loose it and I loose it in front of myself. I listen to myself and thats the best I can do. People have got priorities and I understand them. And thats why I have given up on expecting things from people......right!?
Right now I feel that I am the only one without any priorities in life and just moving along as and where life is takin me.Ask me hows life treating me. And my answer will be AWESOME.
Because it does not help even if I say it ain't because Who Cares!!! Instead let me ask..Hows life treating u !?!
I may sound unearthly and I dun care if I am coz this is ME.
I feel I am at the wrong place and days ahead are long for me. Times are testing and I try to be gritty as ever but loneliness is something which makes me loose it.Neither I want anyone to talk to me about it because you yourself know that it wont help because you have never seen me this way and neither it makes a difference to you! Tell me for once if it does! :
Cheers Over And Over!!!And I hope life treats u well!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
I Fucking Love You!!!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
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Aren't we all obsessed with the F word?
Whatever be the situation, this word comes out of our mouth.
A fucking poem dedicated to you, my fucking F-word, my fucked up life.
It's a fucking world, with only fuckers around,
Fuck fuck fuck, go people, round and round,
Happy, frustrated, pissed, indifferent, it's always Fuck you,
Fucking shit, it's doesn't happen to only us few.
Fuck fuck fuck, every day is a brand new fucking day,
Every minute, every hour, it's only fuck we say,
Helps life go on, satisfaction it's always giving,
Helps making our life worth fucking living.
A fuck to the people who think fuck's a shame,
I love, adore, admire when I play this fucking game,
The game of Fuck, who fucks is the fucking winner,
Who doesn't...well...fuck your face in that mess ka dinner.
P.S- No, this was not written only because of my frustration due to boredom. It was written due to some other factors too. A fuck to all of that. Fucking cheers!!!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Black VS White
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
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This is a mail I got from a friend.
Apparently, this poem was nominated by UN as the best poem of 2008:
When I born, I black
When I grow up, I black
When I go in Sun, I black
When I scared, I black
When I sick, I black
And when I die, I still black
And you white fellow
When you born, you pink
When you grow up, you white
When you go in sun, you red
When you cold, you blue
When you scared, you yellow
When you sick, you green
And when you die, you gray
And you calling me colored?
Apparently, this poem was nominated by UN as the best poem of 2008:
When I born, I black
When I grow up, I black
When I go in Sun, I black
When I scared, I black
When I sick, I black
And when I die, I still black
And you white fellow
When you born, you pink
When you grow up, you white
When you go in sun, you red
When you cold, you blue
When you scared, you yellow
When you sick, you green
And when you die, you gray
And you calling me colored?
Sunday, April 19, 2009
But Now I Dont Care..!!!!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
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I have become oblivious to some ppl who once mattered the most...I can't really tell you the reason coz I don know it myself...I guess some things happen just for "no" reason.
=>He was someone I used to share everything with until couple of months ago when we suddenly drifted apart...I used take care of each n every thing he did or said to me but now...
=>She was a relief to me in college...Past one year became memorable coz of her...But she suddenly decides to stay silent and away at a time when I needed her the most...I was hurt then and I cried...But now...
=>I didn't know him that well...But still there was something with "no-name" between us...Then I realized it was not good...I was actually lil scared of him until a few months ago...But now...
But now I JUST DON CARE!!!
I don't care for them or the relation that we once shared...I have become completely emotionless as far as they are concerned...It doesn't matter to me anymore whether they talk,meet or like me...I have been pondering over "why?" this is happening and I have only this conclusion that I have become oblivious to them for "no" reason...Its ok...Its sometimes good....I feel good after writing this....
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Happy Birthday To ME!!!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
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Dear Me,Happy Birthday!!
May you live long and may god bless you! I love you so much dear that I can’t even begin to appreciate how much your presence has mattered to me in life.You are the only person who has been there with me since I was born to this day. I can’t imagine how my life would have been without you.You were my shelter,my love,my comfort and you are the only person who knows me more than I myself do.
You were there to give me a hand when I fell and appreciate my hard work even when the closest ppl of my life ignored.You are the only person I could turn to and be sure that you will be there.You are the only one with whom I can share anything and everything.You are the only person who has managed to see my tears behind my smile.
You are the only person who has been able to unveil me.You taught me so much about life,emotions,courage and strength.With your experience, I have learnt so many things. From your mistakes I have corrected so many things in my life.
I know whatever it is,you will be there and only you will be there with me till my end.Today is your birthday.A time to celebrate.A time to cheer.A time to drink on the success we have had together and a time to promise our company forever.Happy Birthday Meera,my best friend ever!
Love,
Me...
Yes guys,its my birthday today and I have addressed this letter to my soul.Oh yes! I love myself a lot! Can’t live without me! I call my soul jannat coz I believe I don’t have to be in heaven to experience all the happiness,my soul is where my heaven lies…the true jannat.So I just have to be my soul,pure and lovely!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
LIFELONG RELATIONS = Akele Hum.. Akele Tum..!!!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
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At times you regret few relations. These are the times when you realize that the person you see now is quite different from the person in your perceptive image. You tend to fall for a person and enter into a relationship, a bond, which you think will last at least lifelong. You tend to believe that your judgment for that person will not deceive you. This notion continues till you ‘ACTUALLY’ get to know him. Its then that gradually, the zing of this newcomer starts fading and you finally start seeing the ‘REAL’ him. All the small and previously not-so-important things suddenly start becoming important. A strange frustration seeps in you for trusting him for all that u confided in him. It could be possible that at first you try to continue the relation as it was… for that you might also go an extra mile… but then, the frustration so piles up that you finally end up not bothering about once-so-beautiful relation and feel as if you’re the only one trying to maintain the balance between the broken cords. All the efforts go down the drain!
Well, this was just a relations life story. MAIN SUBJECT still remains untouched. My intention here was not to focus on the birth cycle of a relation, but to focus on the consequences and agony it leads to. It leaves a trail of broken hearts, conked people, swollen eyes, painful hearts which promise their respective brains not to enter into any new relation ever, without consulting them. And mind you, this twinge is not just at one end, the other heart is broken as well (normally) – at times more than you and at times nowhere even close to you… just that they could not get along well any more… just that they were not the fellow travelers as they thought they were…just that it finally proves best for both to go their separate ways. And what follows then is…
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Love You!! Miss You!!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
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This picture is dedicated to Mitu,my Ex-roomie and my Soulmate.I guess the picture speaks for itself,so I need not say anything!
You ask,why this post?Well we have been best friends for a long time but never spent much time together...and now that she is living in another country,I cnt even meet her nd also we hardly talk to eachothr over ph..:(
Today I am missing her a lot,so here I am....
Thursday, April 2, 2009
ORKUT sCRAP!!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
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One morning I got up and saw some 1300 scraps missing, then i asked some people, they had lost 2000 scraps. some lost 3000 scraps, and some people became a complete 'SCRAP-VIRGIN' once again.Then like a true 007 Fanatic, i investigated every single tiny finger profile possible, and came to know from scrutinizing Orkut's blog that, It has now removed all the scraps sent by the people who are no longer in your list or have, deleted their account and all the link wale scraps are now considered as SPAM. so UNSPAM them and get those few scraps muft muft muft :D
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Commitment ...!!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
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Commitment...this is a very important 11 letter word which has a lot of sentiments attached to it. I have heard a lot about it...the views of guys and girls...but i feel there is a huge gap between the views and the reality.It is a general view amongst girls that guys are afraid of commitment...guys try and find ways to run away from any sort of commitment...and usually guys face a lotta problems because of this so-called "commitment fear"...
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
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Dearest pops,baba,as u like to be called,
Congratulations on hitting more dan half-century in your life.
Happy Birthday!!!
The other half of my best friend,you taught me how to be tough,how to hold on to a decision,how important and unique a mother is,how important speed in life is(-the world won’t wait for you to catch up!),how to sleep alone and how to walk alone in the dark.You were the one who gave me deadlines for all the things,including eating,so that I learn to focus.You were the one who taught me how important kajal and bindi is for a lady and only I had the privilege to put a bindi on your fore-head just see how you look!
And in return,it is only my unconditional love that I have to give you and a prayer to god to fill your each day with sunshine and that you always have a hand to hold near you.
love,
ur princess.. mwah!!
Congratulations on hitting more dan half-century in your life.
Happy Birthday!!!
The other half of my best friend,you taught me how to be tough,how to hold on to a decision,how important and unique a mother is,how important speed in life is(-the world won’t wait for you to catch up!),how to sleep alone and how to walk alone in the dark.You were the one who gave me deadlines for all the things,including eating,so that I learn to focus.You were the one who taught me how important kajal and bindi is for a lady and only I had the privilege to put a bindi on your fore-head just see how you look!
And in return,it is only my unconditional love that I have to give you and a prayer to god to fill your each day with sunshine and that you always have a hand to hold near you.
love,
ur princess.. mwah!!
P.s: Another half of my best frnd is my mom!!
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
What Is Your Relationship Status..??
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
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College kids can be very creative especially when they get some time on their hand which happens once in a while but we always make good use of it.
I say college “kids” because I really don’t think there is much of a difference between a college going student and a kindergarten child when it comes to the creative ability to act totally abnormal (but that is a story for another time) ...
Right now we will stick with relationship statuses.
Yesterday I was talking with my sister over the phone when I say, “So what does Facebook say if you try and make a three-way relationship?”
My sis immediately replies: “Wanna give it a try?”
Me: Wow, it really says that? :-)
I hope you got the joke there and no further explanation is required in this matter. I don’t quite know why, but somehow we ended up spending the rest of the afternoon coming up with various facebook relationship statuses.
The list goes something like this:
Single
Right now we will stick with relationship statuses.
Yesterday I was talking with my sister over the phone when I say, “So what does Facebook say if you try and make a three-way relationship?”
My sis immediately replies: “Wanna give it a try?”
Me: Wow, it really says that? :-)
I hope you got the joke there and no further explanation is required in this matter. I don’t quite know why, but somehow we ended up spending the rest of the afternoon coming up with various facebook relationship statuses.
The list goes something like this:
Single
Sleeping Around
In a Relationship
In a Fight
On a Break
On the Rebound
Love-hate relationship
Trying out the other gender
Engaged
Married
About to Get Divorced
About to Get Divorced
Divorced
Lonely
It's Complicated
Can't Talk About It Right Now
In an Open Relationship
In a Long-Distance Disaster
Deciding Between Two People
Happily Cheating on My Partner
Trying Out the No Sex Thing
Cyber Dating
Ugly
What is your relationship status btw? (Perhaps we could add it to the list) :-)
What is your relationship status btw? (Perhaps we could add it to the list) :-)
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Time!!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
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someone i knew very well recently told me, "i dont know what time does... i dont know if its a good thing or a bad thing"she was right. i dont know if what time does is good or bad... it's strange how time benumbs us.something that affected me a lot a few months back has become just another memory for me,now. and like this person,i dont know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
i remember when i went to my school's reunion few yrs ago... there were those girls who had given me a tough time in school-you know the usual bitchin and all that. but something in me made me talk to them and take super giggly pictures with them. i guess time had forced me to move on beyond those days... and on the other hand,none of the people i was closest to in school turned up. today,they're just memories of good times i've had. i want them to remain that way.
now,is that a good thing?
i remember when i went to my school's reunion few yrs ago... there were those girls who had given me a tough time in school-you know the usual bitchin and all that. but something in me made me talk to them and take super giggly pictures with them. i guess time had forced me to move on beyond those days... and on the other hand,none of the people i was closest to in school turned up. today,they're just memories of good times i've had. i want them to remain that way.
now,is that a good thing?
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